The day was sunny and bright, but for me it was dark and cloudy. No defense worked today, it was pure suffering. I tried some visualizations with my morning meditation with no success. My first attempts at laying down a protected perimeter from depression failed. Back to the drawing board. I will try again tonight.
I let depression in today. I let it in and it won by ruining my day. I allowed him entry to kick about myself, tear me down, chew me up. Today was a very weak day for me.
I need to find ways to be stronger. I need to find ways to not let my past define my future with depression. I need to kick him out once and for all. I can't continue having days that ache like this.
I will attempt to end the day on a positive note, tomorrow will be better!
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