Trust

The Blades by Matt May 2011

Trust. Trust is the foundation of every good relationship. When you are fighting depression it is very difficult to even trust yourself.

Every moment is filled with indecision, anxiety and self doubt. It is difficult to understand what is happening even to ourselves in the midst of the storm of depression. We can't begin to be honest with ourselves, let alone those closets to us in our lives.

This of course leads to our loved ones feeling betrayed and maybe even lied to. At the core this is the farthest thing from the truth. The pain and disorientation of depression is indeed crippling. We don't lie, but rather we fail to see the truth before us. We fail to recognize the pain we are in and are causing to those around us until it is to late.

We fail to trust ourselves. Without the trust in ourselves we fail to trust those around us for fear of being refused, rejected and discarded. Hopefully those who really love us will be able to stick with us and accept our illness as we fight to regain our true selves. This is not always the case.